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i didnt expect time flies this fast. pejam celik pejam celik, dah nak masuk 2009 dah. oh shiiit, napela tak pasan dah nak masuk 2009? maybe sebab aku banyak gila buang masa/buat kerja pointless sepanjang tahun ni.

duuuuh.. kan dah ckp? i didnt do anything useful throughout the year. what i did was: do something, rant, learn somehing, rant, rant, rant. and then come laziness, who'll do all those dirty works. i breed the word relax too often this year, almost forgotten the main long term objective of my life: to be someone.

And yeah, maybe this year takde langsung azam. i didnt set one, because i know i wont do that. this year is one azam-less year, but throughout the year, i learnt that by doing nothing, you're not going to achieve anything at all (as opposed to last year's). so, after a week of thinking of what a screwed up life i had and all those year-round retarded recap-what-iv-done-oh-my, my next year's azam will be:

1) try to screw up less often
2) improve myself
3) improve my english
4) do serious gym time
5) monitor my health more often

so, we still got 5 moar days to go for 2009, so this list is not the final one. oh yea, why?

1 - i screwed up things by things in my life. i can actually choose not to screw up every move, but my life will be boring. SO much boring. but this year I actually generate more screwups than ever, a little too much for me. as a result, i become fucking lazy. that include killing my bike.

2 - number two is just a follow up for the first, just to round up next year's wishlist to a number of 5. oh, how perfect your life couldnt be without the number 5.

3 - the latest bar council debate taught me something about being different in term of linguistic control. i remembered when i was in form 5, i could write so disastrously different from now as in english. i really, REALLY, dont want to become a normal malay jerk. yes, within 5 days from now I'll be stepping a new world of being 20. really have to brush up my english, or else ill die with the rest of the normal malays.

4 - a number of people who are actually close to me actually agreed that "siddiq, serious dowh, pegila gym. badan ko sedap" and usually i replied back with "pedulik ape? badan aku ke badan ko sekarang ni.." or "u know what? that's totally unnecessary" (with a grunt). i realized that, within this year, I became thinner. YES. Thin-NER. How wonderful is that?. Instead of being 70kg, I only had 66kg of flesh and bones this year. siraj, my neighbour actually influenced me alot to seriously considering this. by looking at the muscles he had, i began to develop a series of jealousity, thus, providing the idea of this. which reminds me of this conversation:

"eleh, ingat ko banyak sgt otot, takleh lawan dgn aku"
"ape ko ada? ckp skettt"
*bukak baju* "tengok bebetul eh?"
*everyone was looking at my stomach*

..
*i did a wave my using my stomach*
"WTF was that? cuba2 buat lagi"
"takleh.. dia first time je. kali kedua meletup kang"
"bodo.. cacat..."
*everyone was laughing hysterically*

5 - after receiving endless lecture from siti, all the way back from cyberjaya to BTR, i kept thinking of this while driving. today after receiving another unwanted session from syahmi, i kept thinking of this while fighting with them @ cybercafe. i realized my coughings are different this time, triggered super easily this time, which was weird. i wanted to do clinic/hospital time, but dowanna go alone :( haha, shit. if i had a gf, i would force her to teman me do a clinic time. at least i had someone at my side, because i had some minor fear of hospital (serious shit). my parents have a policy of keeping everything by ourselves, so its not me who started it. i'll think of something next year.



oh yea, today's WTF belongs to:

Naruto for having a release of anime but not the manga. I drooled at the onemanga.com/Naruto screen with a 15-minutes refresh intervals just to, please, see the word 'Naruto 430' pop out from the site. Shit internet PLEEEEEEEASE, im begging you...don't make my tomorrow's life more miserable :(






Last by not least, a video of a germany band "Dark Sky" performing a Malay rock song, by using Malay. I felt VERY proud being Malaysian for this video, but their pronunciation bought me some hilarity.




They sang a remastered version of The Unwanted (a singaporean band) - Masih Ada Rindu. I really liked the lyric, it rang some part of myself. Here's the lyric: