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I have so much things to blog, but I should be sleeping right now. Some yawning (thx to CJL) are in place, waiting for further commands.

But, aah. My hands are tied. There's mess all over my bed.


Oh yea by the way. Today's Hari Raya Aidiladha.

I found nothing special about this so-called special day except the revival of ketupat season. Yeah, I agree. I ate tons of ketupats today. No, no such thing as a nasi consumed today.

(but literally ketupat WAS a nasi, i mean, rice)

So, here I go. I hate wearing the full Baju Melayu set, looks so everyone-else'-ish. So I took my sparkling orange baju melayu and wore it, plus a nice black pants. See? A brief observation on the mirror reveals that the pants blends nicely to the atmosphere.

Afternoon: Look who's here? Its the rain!.
Well, the rain successfully infiltrates my consciousness, taking my body to a temporary halt, as in, sleep.


Well, today's conclusion was:

Sleep is considered ultimately fun.
Ketupats can make my stomach work very hard.
I've finally watched the all of the latest South Park season.
Malays are totally morons.

Malays are total morons?. I wish the Subuh's prayer can be as much jemaah as Solat Jumaat. They begin to realize that sunat prayers are more important than solat wajib. Aaah, Malays will totally fail. That includes me, if I'm not mistaken. Changes are A LOT said than done, thanks to government and every UMNO's general meetings.

"Bangsa Melayu perlu tabah atas sesuatu".. and all that stuffs. Isn't that pathetically stupid?. It IS a huge invisible slap on Malays without realizing it, because we've been blinded.

Face it, without any drastic change, Malays will fail at this rate.

And yet, today reminds me of a work that I've been evading it for a very long time. Procrastination-wise, thanks for your short visit. And hell yeah, what should I do?.



Then I begin to realize that I can't depend on someone that much, thanks to the discomfort zone within me and Raihan.

And then I had some trouble with Nadiah.
And then I had some trouble with my Pentium D chipset.
And then I had some trouble with my budget.
And then I had some trouble with Caroline.. again, for the love of god.
And then I had some trouble with ....

Most importantly, I had some problems with my health lately.



I tried to contact Raihan, but fails.

You know what? I began to realize that after all things I took risk because of the name 'friends', I couldn't take care of myself.

I began to BE very alone in all stuffs. I had to take it all myself.

That's super drastic, but I had to. What other choices I have in my life?. You see Siddiq, screw you. You're very alone. No one will help you. No one will actually symphatize you for what you done.



Aaah, psychological impact hurts deeply.
No one knows.







So that's it. there's lots of things I would share in this last post before I fled to nothingness.

I'm planning on buying and donating two PCs, one for Kak Dah because of her family's need vs. her income and the PRS's. Costs me for around RM3K.

And.

I will be offline.
Thanks.





































Oh yea BTW, this is my last post of this year, I swear for the love of god.

Note to myself:
"You think they rate us just for looks so they can take personality into account."
Who am I referring to? Girls.