yeah.
i took a stroll down to the school today for some particular reasons. i wore my yeah-always jeans with a normal black t-shirt. my visit to the school was primarily for a revamp to the pc I bought for the UBK's. i've put up the vista os on the pc, just a social experiment i made for me to judge vista. i've never used vista before. the most time vista was existed in my pc was a mere 20 mins before I switched back to winxp.
so i came there and terus fire up the windows xp cd. it was my hand-built pc so it shouldn't have a problem installing it. after i've installed microsoft office, i tried to overclock the pc, but i was unlucky. it didnt boot for 10 mins. i freaked hectically for a couple of minutes before i found the CMOS battery. after a second time reseting the bios then the pc went on.
haha, i used merely all of my savings just to donate a pc to the bilik kaunseling.
but anyway, today was spm results day. i locked myself in the kaunseling room till 11.00am just to evade everyone in sight. i came down 5 minutes after 11.00am and the first person I saw was claire wong. she was in a mixed emotion when she got her 10As. lol, kevin must've been proud to have a pro sister like that. in the mean time, he must've been super insulted xD.
after i talked to danish, i retreated back to the sideway just to make myself unseen by the others. i saw seng tai wandering around with his brother aimlessly. and i saw, Pn Norliza!. haha.. her first reaction was "tengok tu, tinggi betul dia ni sekarang.. muka pon dah lain.. dah jadi mcm model dah". i responded "cikgu pon macam makin tinggi kot?". hehe.. we talked talked and talked and she came across a thing we've left before: "MySMKC". she was like "bila nak tolong cikgu buat website ni?". ah, sorry. i have no internet. my pc just broke down. and i have no money xD. but i told her to meet me in friday.
despite all of these laughter and chatting, i didn't take my guards down. precautions aside, i saw a face from far which I've never seen in one year of time. aaaah, shit. it's her!. i smiled to Pn. Norliza and went back to the sideways. she was wearing blacks. i was puzzled by the sudden change of perception of her. i stood there for like, 20 mins before she went to the kantin. at that time she didnt notice me, but i saw her famous menggelabah-style walking instead. so, i was like, nevermind. at least if she doesn't pera....
suddenly she was in front of me for no reason. her friends were beside her. i was shocked giler at that time. perghh.. kantoi gila. she stared me for a couple of seconds before left to astaka with her friends.
aha... ahahahaha.... ahahahahahhaha....
how could i let this huge mistake of letting my guards down when i was supposed to.
i'm sure, that was my last encounter with all my juniors and most importantly, with her. we've never talked today, and i kept the minimum safe radius safely. i'm sure, despite abit of rinduness and memories aside, today was my last time i could see her. i recalled almost all the memories i had with her today. the first date we had in KLCC, the 'busstop' incident, almost everything :). yeah, maybe she had herself a new life now but most importantly, she owns my heart before. i've really never felt love so strong before. i've never felt a person so special in my heart...
today was my last day, i gave up completely on her. i've never voluntarily cried for some stupid reason just because of her.
every beat of my heart, i dedicated this blog design exclusively for her and all the things we had together before.
:)
This was the first ever blog post i felt so emotional.
siti was ignoring me like what la. i gave her msges via hp and ym and she didnt even respond to one. when i talked to emira, she told me that 'raihan nyampah'. good for her. thanks alot siti. 7th march before was caroline's birthday. i text'd her minutes after midnight, and she replied 'sapa ni?'. i was like, lagi soraaang...
i began exercising lately. taman bukit jalil was great!. the best place for jogging indeed. and guess what: i began learning silat. Ayam masak merah. etc etc.
and oh yea, my sister's result was absolutely fantastically incredibly GEMPAK. imagine a lazy female taking an exam.. that's how you would imagine her result. srsly.
ah, i'm exhausted.
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