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9:07 PM





last week three different poor innocent people confessed to me. no no, actually there's two, and one of it is indeed a slightly special case xD. i told all of them i don't need all of them. cruelity can be surprisingly the best satisfaction... ever :) miahahahahahahaha...




well hello there avid blog readers. for those of you (including Joe) who were wandering of pretty shiney things that I should put here: no. this is my blog. i have full control of my ramblings. things that i gained is not compulsarily necessary to be written here.


my House TV series collection is finally getting complete. i have a serious house addictness. every time i watched an episode, i'll write down whatever that i felt important. haha.. although i hate being doctor (seriously.. you dont even have the time to socialize, and/or even to find a potential wife/husband), but..

aaahhhh... must.. watch.. another.. episode...



im packing my things now, currently 80% complete. PENANG HERE I GOOOOOO~~~~~~



and yes, i'm starting to really really like someone~ reaaaally reaaally~~~ hehe.. i think she fits. a can say a thousand words about her, but none of them fits the overall perceptual picture of her.

and amazingly she told me the magic word. adirah once told me that word. and yes, even munirah also.

hehe.. cepatt!!! someone halang me!!!


and yes, i found myself a new addiction: dunkin donuts. i rather spare my RM2.10 for a doughnut for anything else in the world.





and.
thanks zikri, kevin, esther, hock ann.

for belanja-ing me.
i'll look forward for another possibility (of coz.. belanja-ing them).


thanks Siti Raihan for being the best bestfriend ever.

thanks Caroline for the complains to my bike. i hate you.



hehe..

i'm looking forwarrd~~~


7:29PM

p/s: i made this post on 9pm two days ago, and completed today. imagine the wonderful busyness i have)

1:41PM


last night/morning was the Blackburn vs Manchester United match. Christiano was great! till..

suddenly the environment turn quiet. i was chatting with syahmi at the moment.. gibberish talk la katakan. i looked at the projector: Blackburn has scored a goal. i was like.. WTF WTF GAAAAAHHHHH!!! i believe santa cruz scored the goal.

the match goes on without a single goal from Manchester United. everybody was in the sombre mood.


'aahh.. habisla 3 mata man u kali ni'

in the minute of 60:xx, tengah syok2 tengok bola.. suddenly: the projector was turned off. everybody was, again, like.. WTF WTF GAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! the anne said its malam ady.. they need to close the kedai. everybody was booding at them. some ppl didnt even pay for their beverages.

hehe. .the classic panorama of Taman Jaya :)

everybody was lost. mana kita nak gi ni? borak borak borak: them imran came with an idea: 'deaodifit'? deaodifit? everybody was... deaodifit? deaodifit?..deaodifit?. everybody agreed on a final match.

name "Ayam Goreng"
sens 7
changelevel dod_avalanche


loading....

as soo as the team selection window comes online
mranz: jeng jeng jeng!!!



last night's last match was the best.

we had three map change. we lost on the first match. i was the only person in the team who kept pushing forward, while they defend the first outpost.

the second match we scored even. 2-2 i think.

the last map, the dod_avalance, we scored 3-2 AND with a higher team point from them (~2.5x). i was sniping all the time xD nevaaa underestimate my wehrmacht sniping skills muahahahaha



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today konain should be leaving by this evening
afiq had a football match
imran should be packing



maybe next time :]


its good to have some friends who really i can depend. i miss siti too



i have a really tight budget this month. the pusat memandu needs another RM50. foods needs more than RM50. i'm gonna starve in 5 days.

p/s: btw deodifit = Day Of Defeat:Source (fast pronounciation)

4:35PM

11:41PM



i don't have time much.


30 mins ago i encountered a one hell of a thing: a police roadblock; en route from bukit jalil to sri petaling. at first, i was puzzled by the overcrowded traffic jam on the main road to the kawasan perumahan. yela, at first i tought it was a normal traffic jam. sekali.. ternampak lampu biru. i was like.. okay.. two things to note here:

6.21AM

- my license just expired anyways.. haha
- and the so-called front L sticker has been 'cabut'-ed by me for no reason

okay. kereta banyak. relaaax... bawak penuh cool.

as i drift the bike to the sideways to avoid the massive overcrowding of vehicles, alamak! there's a policeman in front of me.

i looked at him: he pointed at me and asked me to berhenti.

and i was like.. OMG OMG. with a little sigh, and a hati yang berat, i stopped.


and a guy with a serious face came to me.

"lesen.. ic encik"

ok. fine. calmly, i reached my wallet and grab the ic and lesen and hand it over to him. he then check my bike for.. i don't know. maybe its their procedure anyway.

i looked at him.. belek2 the IC and lesen. i stood there.. waiting for the 'kantoi' moment to arrive...

qucikly he said: "lesen L lagi eh?"

"aaaa... aahah.. baru L" i was half dead at that moment.

then he asked me: "sticker L kat depan mana?"

that question reeeeallly freaks me out. i was calm at that moment. noo noo, i SHOULD act cool.

"err.. sticker kat depan dah kena cabut *pointed at the scratch in front (padahal takde kena mengena pon)*.. salah saya jugak.. sorry"


he then continue to belek2 my bike... and asked me for the road tax. i opened my bike's seat and display to him the wonderful roadtax of mine.


and still he doesnt notice the back of the license.


he then hand over the ic and lesen to an officer. i was thinking there's going to be a saman.. but amazingly no xD. they just wanted to keep a record of it i think.


the last word he spoke to me: "lain kali tampal sticker L kat depan"


i was very relieved.. fuuuHHHHH!!!!! then i came a conclusion that: to qualify for a policeman, you shouldnt have a high level of IQ either.

and.. at that time i was wearing a khaki with a not-so-attractive shirt, so they didnt even suspect me as a rempit either. plus my bike looks so old (i did it just for emergency cases, like this) so they mustve been thinking that i'm just a mamat kampung that came from somewhere.


hahaha..


yesterday while i was belek2ing the notes, siti sent me msgs on YM.. she rasa abit tak puas hati for things i wrote, which i didnt intend to include her at all. so she scolded me like what la yesterday. at that time, i was still frustrated at that time.. then tiba2 she came in to marah2 me. i was like.. okay.. fine kalau that's my problem, then okay. i was wrong.

then she continue to rant more.

then i came to a point where i was sooo much pissed off because of her repeated rants (jarang kan, my friends?). yelah.. dahla tgh tension masa tu, g tambah lagi. baru nak reply kat dia.. tiba2 terfikir lak yang she's my firned. my bestfriend. i knew her better.. she has a time when she had to throw it out alltogether. biasalah, emosional.

"that's not some girl i just met.. that's raihan laa weih"

then tiba2 je i calmed down. senyum sorang2.

i apologized to her. hilang dah rasa tak puas hati tadi. told her that if im wrong, i couldnt agree more.

she told me that she wont be reading my blog either starting from yesterday.



hehe...raihan2. comel je semalam. syg awk~~♥ (i expect (<30%) that she wont be reading this either)








2 hours ago.. i received a msg from afiq. he told me that imran and konain are there already @ taman jaya. he asked me to balik taman jaya.

i couldnt agree more :]

i met them at imran's house. terus g cc, main day of defeat. haha.. daripada umur 15 sampaila 19.. masing2 perangai tak ubah lagi..

imran dgn perangai suka melawaknye
afiq dgn pendiam dia.. nanti start la lawak dia
syahmi dgn...
konain..

that night we intended to ajak mereng, kasi cukup 6 orang. but he turn off his handphone. lol.. ketinggalan.

:] memories.


esok if imran tak balik kedah balik, we've planned on a stretch of nostalgia-inducing activities :D


6.53AM

12.56AM




yela.. bila difikirkan balik, i am now at the bottom of my expectations. this semester i was too concentrating on biology ONLY. i've decided to play with biology because of the lack of knowledge i had in myself. i'm spared with a very, very late timing for college. with all these personal problems and et cetera, most importantly:

bila difikirkan balik: i came here to find a path for my future, regardless of ANY obstacles.



last sunday i had a bedtime chat with bawi. gah, we talked, talked, talked and there's a point where we actually discuss about Adirah. i somehow actually agreed to talk to him about her. i told him about the chronology of our relationship, how i loved her so much, how i put almost all my hopes on her. then i realized that, although we debated about this for some 2-3 hours, i saw an impression that i didn't think of, the generalization of possibilities of someone to change.

after that... pandang2 luar.. pandang2 jalan.. termenung for some while.

- my parents: they are constantly adapting to each and every behavior we siblings display
- the house: has been renovated for a few times yet/so far
- my bike (sayang I): previously it sounds good, but it kept giving me headaches lately
- my PC (sayang II): too. it kept giving me headaches, from grub failures, HD failures, and my sayang get her upgrade aswell :)
- zikri: has been previously a disciplined student, but now displays a brutal impression to others.
- raihan: kept trying for new stuffs. i'm sure her old friends will agree that she has changed aswell
- kl: new developments, new highways, new accessbilities
- my handphone (primary): Nokia 2100 > Nokia 3200 > Nokia i-forgot-the-model > Samsung SGH-i320N > O2 XDA II > Sony Ericsson W300i > Sony Ericsson Z558i







- me: i don't see any significant changes i made/wanted to change so far.



i'm expecting that my personal problems should fade away just like that aswell, but no. it kept getting bigger and bigger. its like a bacteria infection to my inner life. i have no one to, at least, discuss and make me more relieved for some moments.

in anywhere, in any circumstances, i walk alone. yeah, people do tegur me, but that's just a single-line tegur. i do almost my things alone.

adirah's image is still my default phone boot-up image. i found absolutely no reason why should i throw the picture away, so did why should i keep the picture anyway.

my PC and my handphone are the only thing I am very close to right now. sigh.. materialistic keeps thing running though.

bila difikirkan balik:

SAKIT hati ni.. memang sakit hati ni






maybe its time to look into a narrower path of my life. maybe the solution obviously ada kat depan mata je, i just overlooked at it. maybe...


i was wrong?

2:17AM

1:01 AM



my 30 minutes was spared for the journey home.

i just took my ever-needed bath. good god WTF had my parents do to the house? the 13 years old original red gate that came originally with the house @ that time was finally replaced with a better gate. the mid house was refurnished, with new tiles covering. the old almari was thrown away, giving more ample space to a new modern book rack from ikea. and finally, both the toilets were upgraded with more bathroom arsenals.

and i sense repainting. i realized some new tins of paint outside. upon inspection, my lil brother's room has begun reskinning.




ahhhhhh... its GOOD to have the internet back.


from last week onwards, there's a new homo sapiens that came into my life. lets say that she's mrs. xy. oh yea, there's a 'raihan' on her name too.

although she wanted to know more about me, but ultimately i'm comfortable with myself being me all along.

and oh yea, i HATED when in a point of life when we're doing something, we had to definitely stop what we're doing just because of an sms.

ok lets not discuss more about her.



talking about raihan, we haven't contact with each other for a quite some time. i just realized 10 mins ago in my pinkey-comm (celcom number) that she threw me an sms.





i hereby will share you some of my random pics.



This pic was snapped several days ago with my desktop on the left, followed by my laptop and meor's lappie. meor's laptop was going through a reformatting. notice my pinkey-comm on my desktop.



last Monday while i was jungle-trekking, we was astonished to discover a new species in the wild. we called it: pacat ninja.

notice the blood inside the socks. now think of the possibility of them going inside the tight socks. i can't even find a way to remove them except removing all my shoes altogether. must've been a new ninja skill they've acquired during all these civilizations.



and one of them managed to suck my blood from OUTSIDE FROM MY SOCKS. now that's real ninja.



here are the aftermath of the battle. good god even today my feets are still riddled with holes of revelations.



the BEST katil of all time. i was the only one people in the house who owns a bantal peluk xD



Robocon 2008 @ UKM. The final match between MMU and UTeM. UTeM has a sneaky keji busuk hati pendengki strategy of having a blocker in their team, while others think of a faster and better robot, they've exploited a sense of humor by leaving other team speechless by simply blocking a channel. and the blocker was slow, that was the main point of laughter. other team was like, rushing to pick up he balls but they were like, slowly drift to the opponents' side and simply block them while maintaining the cool factor.

pic: announcing MMU melaka as the malaysia robocon winner in 9... 8... 7...



and i managed to take a panoramic view of the venue. click on the image to see the full view. i made it with my Z558i (exif data included)



this is what we call as a pluck on the nose by a playar.. ngehehehehe



my old casing. oh well, i had to threw it all away as i don't have any space for it in my room left. damn how i loved the casing so much.



to build this i had to do some engineering calculations first. a 300mm diam (12") pengayak tepung that closely approximates a shallow parabola. its mesh hole (~5mm) are well under the min .1 wavelength at 2.4GHz (1 wave = 125mm)

diam 300mm (D) with 60mm depth (c to centre)

f = D2 / 16(c)

and so on...


equals 30dB gain = :)



i loved how the feeling where i was ready to learn and realized that no one in the lab without any notice.








last week, i had a very terrible fever. i had to retreat to my home after subuh only to find that my body is in grief danger ahead. most importantly, before that i had the worst dream i've ever encounter, i was in a hospital and i was dying left and right of me stood my family members. it was awful. before i left the hostel, i sent a ':)' sms to her (whoever who perasan) in case something really bad happens to me.


gaaah

3:28 AM