Friday, November 30, 2007 at 9:12 pm
Siti gave me two interesting cerpens to be read. I admit, both of them gave me inspirations, broadening my perception of this particular thing called love.

Reminds me of the song When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne. Reminds me of Muslimatun. Aaahh.. past stories.. The only outsiders picture in my Friendster profile I kept till today. Why is it still there berbanding all the others? Definitely no one asked for the picture

Yeah, Caroline msged me today. She told me she may be going to Technology Park Malaysia Academy next year. I was shocked. UNFAIR!.

If somebody saw me dead by at least next year, the main reason would simply be 'lack of love'.




My body?. Some of my close friends realized that my body was not build to stand air cond. breeze so much. So, my three weeks of working in a really cosy environment, where we just sit all day, doing physically nothing, with the assistance of 22'C atmosphere.

So my body came up with this decision = to torture me in an immense physical immobilization, which is simply called as 'Demam'. Thank YOU. Now I had this weird feeling all across my day. Simply started as a selsema, but it developed as an influenza.

So here I am. I had to rest my body here and there.



Oh yea. As of today, two of my cousins planned to reside permanently at my house. SPM-aftertakers, Miftahurrahmah and Kak Suraya. Girls?. Yeah I agree to your opinions, whichever it is. I'm planning to take the PS2 with the Guitar Hero cds and flee to Kelana Jaya for a moment.



Fuiyoh! gmail now provides me with 5GB of space! FREE SPACE~~. (baru perasan)

I love gmail.
Still, I hate girls.

By the way, this may amuse you for a moment:

New school semester:

At the first week:

At the second week:

Before the mid-term test:

During the mid-term test:

After the mid-term test:

Before the final exam:

Once know the final exam schedule:

7 days before final exam:

6 days before final exam:

5 days before final exam:

4 days before final exam:

3 days before final exam:

2 days before final exam:

1 day before final exam:

A night before final exam:

1 hour before final exam:

During the final exam:

Once walk out from the exam hall:

After the final exam, during the holiday:



Taken from Amelia's blog without permission xD. Note to Amelia : Hi. (if you're reading this)



















I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cried

LOL-lified

Thursday, November 29, 2007 at 9:16 pm
Anyway, I got another 30 minutes of blogging left for today. This cybercafe is closing down.

I used to entertain myself in this cybercafe years ago. I repeat, yeeears ago. At that time, this cc was in its peak of its era. Everyone came. Chatting, YM and etc was the most popular bandwagon in this place. Today, I came again to this old masterpiece. The PCs are still here. There are still about 5-6 functional PCs, but its okay for me.

This place reaaaly brings in nostalgia.

Tomorrow is supposed to be rain. I checked with the weather forcast. Not just rain, but a storm. I mean, geographically speaking in KL larl, jgn terasa ye warganegara asing?. I told Caroline I couldnt meet her tomorrow because of the rain. She said "waah.. pandainye sid".

And I was thinking. Should I respond?.




Anyway. Today was better. Yeah. Better. I rang up some calls. My senior told me, with a smiling face, "Better.. better than yesterday".

Early in the morning, I had a serious fever. I forced myself to face the fever, and go to work. Biasalah, my body cant stand aircond too much. I took several shots of panadol, and still. My nose was plugged with mucus all the way till the very end of 5.44pm.

When I came out from the MGCC building, taking my nostalgic path of going home, suddenly I glanced at the sky. The sky was gasping for air, wanting to tell me something.

At last, when he got his breath, I looked at it, and he said:






"Nama saya Rain"




And then the rain starts pouring very, very heavily.

I was forced to retreat at the nearest flyover to take shelter. When I tried to continue my journey, I came to another obstacle. There was a time when I saw motorists stopped at the corner. I looked at them. Their faces indicate something is going on ahead. So I looked up ahead, the road was covered with water. The pond has reach its maximum capacity, and its overflowing, taking the road as a hostage.

So I took the risk, luckily my bike was awesomely handsome. We managed to pass through the booby trap.




So, here I am, now. Still in fever, looking great.

Do I need a girlfriend?

lol

Wednesday, November 28, 2007 at 8:16 pm
131th post of the blog.

Today was challenging. I was assigned a half-day test of receiving calls. 10 days of training of ALL Maybank products, transactions, possibilities, advantages and cons, et cetera was not enough!. Others took 3 months, why can't I?. Zzzzzz. I'm not that smart as you think.

Anyway, Letchumi, the team leader told me that I should be starting after lunch. I was told to do the Buddy Programme before that. My last Buddy Programme chance. I observed my partner very, veery closely, citing every inquiries that needs to be asked. At lunch, I was thinking what am I gonna do when I got the call nanti.



"Aaaahh... shit. Dahla tak tahu apa2.. I will fail, believe me.."

but deep inside my heart, theres a tiny guy that shouts "YOU CAN DO ITT!! TO HELL WITH THE PROBLEMSZZ!!!111"



The tiny guy sure relieves me alot. I owe him one, whoever he is.

So I went to the toilet, doing whatever a man could do to rectify his confidence level. "You are handsome, wise, rich, young professional" chanted repeatedly while configuring my hair was the best relief I could get.


So the day went on. Calls after calls I answered. No problems occured.

I love myself.

Oh yea, my bike screams "I NEED MAINTAINANCEZZ!!!11". My back tire just flattens out like that while en route balik rumah from work. Its a paku embedded. Thanks to a random Malaysian citizen I have to bear the cost of replacing another tube. PLUS, the paku punches through my inner tire and making its way out again, making two holes. What does it means? It means that my tire is awaiting replacement at any time.

Account Statement for my lovely bike:
=====================================

RM100 for a new tubeless wheel.
RM50 for a new helmet
RM20 for a 4-stroke oil
RM65 for a pair of an original Modenas key
RM50 for a bike lock

equals to RM285 (according to Microsoft Calculator)

and I have no money

still equals to RM285.

*scratches my head*

I love my bike.

Beautiful Disaster.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007 at 10:55 pm
Beautiful Disaster .

Simple? Yet it is Raihan's blog title. One night she reminds me of her blog, which I think she reaally wants it to be changed cosmetically. The moment she talked about it, I felt a spark on my head.. "blog....siti?". Ah, lupa. I didnt save the password in my PC somewhere. Maybe it is lost between the reformat transactions.

So I grabbed one of the skins in the blogskins.com site and quickly implement it on her site. There was two sample design. She liked the eee--yucks pinky angelish design, which I volunteerly objects. It was horrible. Aah, I can't imagine it to be implemented on any site.

Reverted the design to classic template with some help of google. The task is as easy as cake, ..or pie, whichever is easier to eat.



Nevermind about that. The task is finished already.



I downloaded the Guitar Hero I songs via torrent. I was satisfied, very very satisfied. Soundtracks of my favourite all-time Playstation 2 game came alive on my PC. Love it!.

Well, I achieved a remarkable pinnacle of my life today by, ...not sleeping while working xD. In the past two weeks I couldn't resist my body to sleep. I was too tired. Very very tired. Usually I slept while in the lunch break, a one hour of sleeping glory. The downslide of this glory is, just before we went to lunch, I became very tired because of yesterday's obnoxious sleeping time. I somehow resisted the sleeping galore, concentrating on the Buddy Programme. By 2.00pm my head was screaming "I neeeed a sleep pretty pleease".. the head was beginning to berdesing. I began losing balance on my head. Miraculously I survived till 5.45pm. You can tell the condition of myself just by looking at my eyes.

So I took a mini-sleep between Maghrib and Isyak. Aaah.. Quality Sleeping.

Eventually somebody woke me up via handphone. AGAIN. To be precise, my body loathed an instant killing intent after observing my ringtone. When I looked at the mini screen, it was Afiq. Lol..

So today, began my big big day. The first day I received calls. Thanks to my overflowing confidence, the day passed without a glitch, as of 5.30pm. At 5.45 I received a call from a cocky customer, which demands HER Mastercard card to be checked. One step further, and she could get a free Block Code X on her billing statement. My WHOLE day was ruined because of her cockiness.



Aaaahh.. The Guitar Hero I soundtracks. I'm listening to Frankenstein - Edgar Winters Group now.


Did I mention about my love life recently?. Yes and no.

Sarah called me today. Ringkasnya, I told her, if she wants me by her side, she will have to bear the cost. I'm still single because I wanted to plan my future very, very well. The thing is, I don't have a suitable candidate for that, except for two particular person. I don't want to discuss anything about this. I told Sarah that if we became sweet couple, I promised her to very muchie lovey her. And if one day she broke off with me, I will murder her and her family.

She freaks out. Terus merajuk. "takpela.. sid tak sudi eh? maybe sara ni blabla" and goes on..

I wrote that just because, I have absolutely NO plan to marry that girl. Saje je tulis tu. Saje bagi dia marah. Biasalah. Reverse psychology. The good thing by using reverse psychology is, we can expect the answer/response after that. Instead of following the flow of the conversation, we can exploit them. I learnt all of these by myself, by experience.




I really, really need someone to fill up the blank space in my heart. Its just I don't know how to fill. Sad? Yeah, but its me. My heart keeps deteriorating.

I really, really, REALLY miss Caroline. The question is: did she?. That's why I wanted to evade this nonsense in my life.


Somebody save me please.

Well..

Tuesday, November 20, 2007 at 11:16 pm
Today. 20th November 2007.

I felt extremely stupid in these past days.

First of all. Siti Raihan.

Yet again, I was blessed with her blissful merajukness. Yet she continues to.. In my opinion, I didn't do anything wrong, nor is she. Is there anything wrong for someone expressing their opinion towards?. I believe in this continuously cruel and annihilating world, this thing really gave impact to somebody unlucky.

She just broke off with her boyfriend. That's really good. Relieves me alot. Its a very good move indeed, evading all costs while you can. I can see some personality change in her. Also, what can I observe is, she's in a very unstable condition. It was one of her finest moments in life, and somebody just wrecks it.

Haha.. Teens. Risk have to be made to move forward; gain experiences. Even I had those days too.. (reminds me of Caroline). It was a veryy long period though, and I survived.

Back to the story. I did nothing wrong, neither did she.

I was hoping for the usual cheerio up afterwards. We were actually talked like nothing happens. That's how our usual cases ends.

Maybe I was just kept giving advices on what she couldnt risk.
Maybe I was talking to myself all along.
Maybe she hates me.

or

Maybe I was just a stupid friend to be.

Yeah, a stupid friend to be. A friend who was in a perception of extreme stupidity. Maybe she thinks that all the time. Maybe I was just too stupid to be her friend. Yeah. Maybe that's IT. I'm just too stupid to be her friend right? RIGHT???



Yet anyway, by whatever she thinks of me, she's still my best-BEST friend to be :). I had lots of plans in my mind on the eve of 24th/12.

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The first one DOES sounds as bad as it is, but the second thing causes me more. It involves my credibility, my.. everything.

I did some major mistake that involves EVERYONE on the trip. Not once, but twice. I was actually thinking of suiciding on the way back to KL. I felt the murderous intention to kill myself on behalf of my slackness. On the highway, while I was traveling 130KM/H, I actually was thinking to just smash my bike through the woods to end everything. Yeah, settle everything instantaneously. This was my second time I felt this was since Carolines'

I'm sorry.

Details? Only my wife should know this.


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Today was my day. The first day of change. I didnt speak much on the training session today. Mr Muru was scared of my face today, I can see through his eyes. I took everything seriously today. Duh!

Usually, when I came through this situation, Raihan was the only person who I could depend. Now, everything just works perfectly as the qada' and qadar planned. Maybe the world just hates me. Who knows?

Life just kept getting more cruel everyday.






haihzzzzzzzzzzz................................


Well anyway, tomorrow, 22th November 2007 is the 4th birthday of the blog!